Don't you just hate that feeling of being left in limbo ? It's this uneasy almost unreal feeling. You're neither here or there; you're not going forwards in life nor are you going backwards - you're just exactly where you are. You're almost blank - mentally and emotionally. Its fine for a while but then it just sort of sucks doesn't it ?
Despite having a certain degree of routine and structure to my life - I've found myself in this limbo like feeling. It's a bit unnerving and unnatural for me. I guess it's all to do with what I'm going through internally.
I want to do something to snap out of it. It's not like I haven't tried. I have. I just seem to be stuck in a zone where nothing really seems to pull me out of it. Some days it's a quick-sand type of feeling.
It's an extremely uncomfortable feeling not being in control despite actually being in control. My emotions are close to the surface and yet I feel they are buried so deep that I have to dig in just to be able to express myself. And then, there's the temper that seems to be flaring up at the slightest of situations - which is unnecessary even for me.
Where is serenity when you need it ?