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serendipityeu6Do you know what the word Serendipity means ?  It’s such a sweet sounding word right ?  It means – a fortunate accident.  Dictionary.com describes it as an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.   Wikipedia states Serendipity is the effect by which one accidentally discovers something fortunate, especially while looking for something else entirely.

 

I was flicking channels earlier today and came across the movie Serendipity – which is a movie that I’ve always been fascinated by.  I watched it – after quite a few years; and it mad me smile back to a few incidents over the past few months; and made me very glad for my actions of last night.

 

Quite a few months back – I met SK – and it was an entirely random encounter.  We had met online; got talking online; eventually graduated to text messages and then finally on the phone.  We had not ‘met’ each other as yet.  So we met.  We had planned to go for a long drive and just chat.  Driving anywhere in Bombay can become a long drive – but we were being adventurous – let’s go somewhere else.

 

I basically drove almost 100 km outside of the city limits with a complete and utter stranger who I did not know anything about aside from what he had told me online and on texts etc.   I even lay flat down on the curve of an uphill road risking being run over by cars that could be driving around.

 

The reason I tell you about SK is because he introduced me to the concept of metaphysics.  You have probably heard the term – but may not know about it  - I was pretty clueless about the subject myself.   SK has now started a Blog which I would definitely recommend checking out when you get a chance.

 

Here’s an excerpt from his blog which really touched something inside of me.  I have been feeling restless and slightly incomplete; in the sense that I have been wanting to do something but haven’t done it – and after reading SK’s blog – I knew I just had to do whatever it was that was on my mind.

 

Whether its praise, love, criticism, money, time, space, power, punishment, sorrow, laughter, care, pain, or pleasure… the more you give the more you will receive..

So indulgence is the best thing to do…

Don’t say No… Just go into it and experience the moment….

It’s just being like a river… Following a direction … keep flowing… you may wander different routes but you will reach the ocean at last (that’s the goal)… but if you go stagnant… there will be dirt settling over you….

A flowing river always depicts strength, beauty, health, and freshness…
So we just need to flow… Never stop… do everything that comes your way… coz if it’s come in your way… It’s for you…

 

Pretty deep huh ?  As I said – these words struck a chord somewhere inside of me; and that in turn has helped me settle the internal volley of words going on inside of my head and I have finally taken my own self-advice.

 

I emailed the man.  I just put my thoughts out on paper (well on gmail) and have sent it across to him via cyber space and told him how I feel and that it would be nice to know how he feels about the situation.   I don’t know if I will hear from him; if he will ever respond; but at least I have done what I had to do and told him.  Now it’s up to life – fate – destiny – karma – whatever you want to universecall it – to determine the outcome.

 

I sent that email around 4 a.m yesterday; and now I feel like my Facebook status I am letting myself go to the universal energy flows … wonder what this ride is gonna be like !!

 

The series of events which led me to send that email included having written the email almost 3 weeks ago but never actually sending it out; then reading SK’s blog the night before; finally being able to just send the email out; and to top it off – watching the movie Serendipity today post the email etc. 

 

Here’s a memorable quote from the movie which I feel sums up how I feel about my actions.

 

Life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences, but rather, it's a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite sublime plan.

I’ve been feeling this tune for a few years now … I don’t even remember the first time I heard it but about 2 years ago – for a period of a few weeks – I had to hear this track at least once a day to get my daily fix.

 

Curiosity always gets the better of me and I went to go dig up the video (Thank you God for bringing YouTube into our lives!).  I watched it – and it’s really not what I expected for the kind of track that it is.  Although to be honest – I didn’t really have any sort of expectation of the video.

 

 


I quite like the start of the track … The vibes off the tune just make me want to get lost in the music … I’m normally not one for lyrics – but I like the lyrics on this one.   Perhaps I haven’t paid too much attention to them – however in my mind – the beats combined with the vocals make for a very sexy song !  There’s that sexual innuendo behind the music .. do you feel it too ?

Have you heard this song before ? What do you think about it ?  I can associate this track with some good times =)  There have been special moments in the past; if I’m feeling nostalgic – I might backtrack and reminisce on some memories – but then pull myself together … sometimes that feeling can be too much or too intense.

Was going through my collection of images that I liked and came across this one which I wanted to share with you all.

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What do you think about this picture as a whole ? The image and the text ? It really caught my attention. I love the tribal drum; the blurry hands and hint of knee.

I haven’t written about music in a while. I’ve been keeping it to myself almost. Rhythm and beats are quite a part of my daily life. I am not OTT – I don’t even own an iPod; and my last possessed MP3 player is playing a disappearing act with me. I have close to 3464 tracks of music on my laptop which include a huge variety of English, Arabic, Hindi, Punjabi, French, and Spanish songs.

I can’t go about in a moving car without music. When I was younger – the only way I could fall asleep would be if I had the stereo playing something in the back ground. Nowadays - after learning the value of paying my own electricity bills – I no longer do that =(

I’m currently listening to Armin Van Buuren’s – Face to Face (Martin Roth Remix) and it’s a perfect tune for a ‘pick-me-up’ and a great way to start a Monday morning =)

The music starts of slightly loud with a back beat that’s gradually building it’s tempo … there are some very light vocals which blend into the background – and you can still feel that pulsing beat building up … It’s continuous rhythmic flow is almost hypnotising – you could almost forget the additional beats on the track … and that’s just the beginning !

The beats are uplifting, and have a melodic flow through out. Even if you aren’t a house or funky house listening – I’m sure you’d be able to hear this track out at least once. The electric piano comes in around 2:44, leaving behind its single solitary notes, echoing throughout - there is a slow momentous build up – it flows directly into you with every breath inhaled … Close your eyes, and just feel the music, let the beats vibrate through your body, let it reach your soul … Did you just feel the pull against your heart ? Let your blood dance through your veins in tune with the rhythms behind this track … Feel the finale of the track wash through your entire body – leaving behind a tingling sensation ?

Anyone a Buddha Bar fan ? Have you heard 'Desire' by Deepak Chopra featuring Demi Moore ? Yes, Demi Moore as in the actress who was once married to Bruce Wilis and now married to Ashton Kutcher !

As usual, I went and got hold of the video and it didn't cease to amaze me !! The scenic imagery, the fire red & orange sunsets, and swells of waves, completely takes my breath away.

The lyrics and rhythms of this track are just immensely soothing and yet so deep – it lays a finger on my heart.

The lyrics are almost pure and yet so humble in their meaning … honest, open, soul baring. Demi Moore's voice just adds a touch of sensual mystique to this tune.

Do we love ourselves more than we love our lovers ? Can we truly love someone unconditionally without thought for ourselves ? To experience a love where you can find your strengths in someone else is quite intense !

Passion at its peak … where your senses hunger for a touch and taste of another … you can look but cannot touch … whereby a mere glance is enough to melt you and stir a flame within.

I quite like the depth behind the 2nd last verse of the song … I am a water & air sign and love the calming effects that water brings about. The power of the ocean – in all its magnitude – is a reflection of how truly powerless we are in the face of it all. Does the ocean call out to you the way it does to me ?

Are you like the ocean – smooth on the surface, turbulence rampaging below ? Do you have the same intensity as the waters that beckon you to dare tread their surface ? Imagine being able to merge yourself as one with the ocean … to rise above the surface and engulf those around you and make them one with you ?



A lover knows only humility, he has no choice.
He steals into your alley at night, he has no choice.
He longs to kiss every lock of your hair, don't fret,
he has no choice.
In his frenzied love for you, he longs to break the chains of his imprisonment,
he has no choice.


A lover asked his beloved:
Do you love yourself more than you love me?
Beloved replied: I have died to myself and I live for you.
I've disappeared from myself and my attributes,
I am present only for you.
I've forgotten all my learnings,
but from knowing you I've become a scholar.
I've lost all my strength, but from your power I am able.

I love myself...I love you.
I love you...I love myself.

I am your lover, come to my side,
I will open the gate to your love.
Come settle with me, let us be neighbours to the stars.
You have been hiding so long, endlessly drifting in the sea of my love.
Even so, you have always been connected to me.
Concealed, revealed, in the unknown, in the un-manifest.
I am life itself.

You have been a prisoner of a little pond,
I am the ocean and its turbulent flood.
Come merge with me,
leave this world of ignorance.
Be with me, I will open the gate to your love.

I desire you more than food or drink
My body my senses my mind hunger for your taste
I can sense your presence in my heart
although you belong to all the world
I wait with silent passïon for one gesture one glance
from you.

David Guetta the pioneer of French house with Up & Way, a garage-style track with vocals by Robert Owens released in 1992 really made a name for himself in the mid-90s as one of the key catalysts of Parisian nightlife by promoting evenings at such renowned Paris hot spots as Folies Pigalle, Queen, Bataclan, Palace and Les Bains, where he invited DJ legends like Little Louie Vega, David Morales, DJ Pierre and Roger Sanchez to join him on the turntables. In 2001, however, he went back to his first love: making music.

The World Is Mine has been 'strongly influenced' by Depeche Mode, and indeed it's strikingly similar in sound and style to the 90’s synth pop pioneers. It has a fine beat, is melodious, and the dance floors have been going mad about it. David succeeds in tingeing his work with a slightly darker, more foreboding dimension, creating something that is both uplifting, yet strangely edgy at the same time. The commercial package also features a superb percussion-based remix from Deep Dish.

Developing progressively via synths, ominous riffs and a Dave Gahan style vocal chanting 'mine, the world is mine', the mix builds and builds before collapsing in a predictable but nonetheless fantastic breakdown before taking off for two more minutes of thumping electro-house action. C’est Fantastique!

This is not just one of my all-time favourite dance tunes but also the top tune for all my cousins !! There is no way that if this track is playing – that any of us would not be on the dance floor ! Every time I hear this tune, I’m elated. It is almost as if the beats become one with my heart beat, and the vocals are a part of the blood flow within me. The lyrics seem to just ease through my body, my veins as the lyrics go.

It is a MUST HAVE on any CD that I make for my listening pleasure – or a part of the playlists at any parties. Over the course of the last 24 hours, I have probably heard this song about a handful of times varying from my car, a house party, a night club, even as a ringtone on my friends’ phone ! I can completely lose myself to the stirring rhythms … the track is mixed to build-up a delirious range of emotions … sensual, edgy, sharp and it totally hits a spot :)

I don't know about your musical preferences but this track is a natural high !! I can close my eyes and completely lose myself in the vocals ... do you ever feel like the world is really just all yours ?

That rush one gets driving down an empty stretch of road ... no one there except for you ... you control the road, the environment around you .. euphoric achievement perhaps ? There is no fear ... just the bare feeling of being at one with the world and that the world is really all mine :)

I believe in the wonder
I believe this new life to gain
Like a God that I'm under
There's a drugs running through my veins

I believe in the wonder
I believe I can touch the flame
There's a spell that I'm under
Got to fly, I don't feel no shame

The world is mine
The world is mine
The world is mine

I've lost my fear to war and peace
I don't mind that (the world is mine)
You took the price and realize
That to your eyes (the world is mine)

Take a look what you've started
In the world flashing from your eyes
And you know that you've got it
From the thunder you feel inside

I believe in the feeling
All the pain that you left to die
Believe in believing
In the life that you give to try

The world is mine
The world is mine
The world is mine

I've lost my fear to what appears
I do my best(the world is mine)
You seem surprised and realize
That to your eyes (the world is mine)

The world is mine
I've lost my fear to what appears
I do my best(the world is mine)
You seem surprised and realize
That to your eyes (the world is mine)

I've lost my fear to what appears
I do my best (the world is mine)
You seem surprised and realize

That to your eyes (the world is mine)


I heard this track for the first time earlier this evening and felt an immediate connection to it :) and had to find out the name ...

Wolfsheim - Dream of You

Here's a bit of background on the artist if you don't already know ...

Wolfsheim was a synthpop band (a subgenre of New Wave in which the synthesizer is the dominant musical instrument) from Hamburg, Germany.

The band was founded in 1987 by Markus Reinhardt and Pompejo Ricciardi. They were inspired by the name of a fictional character from F. Scott Fitzgerald's The Great Gatsby.

Wolfsheim's style takes cues from the 1980s New Romantics and New Wave; their lyrics tend to be melancholic, but at the same time modernist.


Now as I mentioned before - I'm not much one for lyrics - I prefer to listen to beats ... and this tune had it 'all' ... some wickedly sensual beats, deep lyrics and an intensity that I just don't know how to explain.

I got home a little while ago and went on the hunt for the lyrics - and thanks to the gods of google, a couple of key words - and voila ! On first reading - the words don't mean so much - and it feels sort of 'low', 'depressed', .. you get my drift ?

By the time I had found the lyrics - I'd also managed to download the actual song and find the youtube video ... and before you roll your eyeballs ... I've paid for enough CD's over the last decade !!

I played the track with the head phones on, closed my eyes, letting my fingers find a life of their own .. and here's the product ......
... my fingers type words that I do not know .. a shudder going through my blood cells with a tingle all the way down to my toes ... it's making me dizzy ... I'm spinning .. I can actually feel myself get lost to the beats and the bass ... my breath has become shallow .. paced .. my mind is a whirlwind of activity ... no .... energy would be the right word ... the rhythm behind those beats combined with the way the words have been used .. it engulfs me - taking my breath away !

Daaammnn ... pretty emotive for someone who was typing with their eyes closed ... hmmm ... you will just have to hear the track the way I have to possibly understand what I'm trying to explain here ...

It's a pretty upbeat start to the track which automatically gets your toes tapping :) If you enjoy listening to beats then this is definitely a track you need to hear ... Extremely uplifting ... it'll make you smile .. even if you aren't a 'house / trance' type of person ... The beats and the lyrics are quite contradictory actually when you think about it ...

We've all always been here all along and each of us has been at some point or the other - in search of that someone ... you have a vision - 'dream' as the lyrics go - of what this person is going to be like .. how compatible they are going to be to your life .. and perhaps whilst we are going about our daily lives and just living life as it is our very last day ... there come days when you wonder why there is that 'something lacking' feeling ? Despite the fullness you have around you - there is some small part of you - no matter how deeply hidden away - that is floating in loneliness ...

It's kinda obvious that we as humans need someone at some point or the other to share our lives with .. more so - we need that significant other - who is able to dig into your soul and see what no other can see about you ... Is that the vision you have ? Is that the vibes the beats are giving off ?

I'm now hearing this track for the fourth time as I ramble on .. and I'm thoroughly enjoying it .. I'm smiling, tapping my feet, grooving even :) It's one of those tracks that I can see myself completely letting go to at a club ... The rhythm just makes you want to sway your body in time with the beats ...



I've been here all the time
As far as I know doing right

I've always waited for the moment
That you would come through my door


But this brought loneliness so far

I lay my hand onto my heart

Is this a life I want to live?
Is this the dream I had of you? (2x)


Now I'm standing here alone

Waiting on my own

For something that will fill the emptiness inside

The moment that you're mine

But this is loneliness I know
I lay my hand onto my soul

Is this what life has got to give?

Is this the dream I had of you?

... the dream I had of you?

I was driving down an empty stretch of road the other night - a rarity in the city - and was flipping tracks on the mp3 player - when George Michael's 'Amazing' came on.

Considering I was returning home from a night of dancing, this was the last song I expected to be turning up the volume to ! Don't get me wrong, I've always liked this track, otherwise it wouldn't be on that particular CD .. but something just sort of sparked in me ...

Have you actually 'heard' the lyrics ? I'm not much of a lyrics person - I love beats ... but after hearing this track that night in full volume, I 'needed' to get the lyrics and just read it, 'know it' .. it felt like I would be missing out if I didn't actually know what this sexy man was trying to let his audience feel ...

I found myself humming to th
e song - and actually singing at one point with a huge grin on my face ! and the best part of it all once I read the lyrics .. I am completely and utterly single ! And you know what .. It doesn't matter at all :)

I could put the words of this - to quite a few incidents in my life ... Every new relationship we enter - be it with a new friend, colleague, co-worker, boyfriend / girlfriend - are we actually entering them completely openly ?? Aren't we all a bit mixed up ourselves at some point or the other ?

And don't we all hit a point where we look back and just think .. 'DAMN .. that guy / girl / man / woman made me feel AMAZING' ? .. so then why are we not with that person ? There must be enough of reason for that - good, bad or ugly .. and yet, it's 'that' person we think of .. it's a person from your past ...

For me, it is almost a flash back of my past .. a sort of inner celebration that just cannot be explained in words (or perhaps just not at this moment in time) .. This is not to say that I'm not content with my present .. maybe I just feel that way with this song ... I'll explore this some more .. or maybe it's just a random mood phase !

So anyway - here are the lyrics ... I hope you take a few minutes to hear the song yourself, and hopefully let me know how you felt when you hear it ..

I was mixed up when you came to me
Too broke to fix
Said'daddy get you gone, I'm missing my baby'
Still missing my baby

I was stitched up by the hands of fate
Said how you gonna make it on your own
If luck is a lady?
Maybe luck is a lady

I was going down for the third time
My heart was broken, I was not open to your suggestions
I had so many questions
That you just kissed away

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise
That day you walked in and changed my life
I think it's amazing
The way that love can set you free

So now I walk in the midday sun
I never thought that my savior would come
I think it's amazing
I think it's amazing

I think you're amazing

You tried to save me from myself
Said 'Darling, kiss as many as you want!
My love's still available
And I know you're insatiable'

We're like victims of the same disease
Look at your Big Bad Daddy, and your mom
And your mom...was always acting crazy

I was going down for the third time
My heart was broken, I thought that loving you was out of the question
Then I saw my reflection
Saying please don't let this go

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise
That day you walked in and changed my life
I think it's amazing
The way that love can set you free

So now I walk in the midday sun
I never thought that my savior would come
I think it's amazing
I think you're amazing

Celebrate the love of the one you're with

Celebrate, this life with your baby
I think you should celebrate yeah
Don't put your love in chains baby
No no, walk in the midday sun
I thought I was dreaming
I think it's amazing
I think you're amazing

I said celebrate the love of the one you're with

As this life gets colder
And the devil inside
Tells you to give up